Update

After a year without posting on here, I now feel the urge to expressed what I'm up to or not up to.

The last thing I have post about school was a project I wrote and directed for my capstone/thesis semester. I finished the film and received an A in the class. The film had potential but turned out shit. I was pretty depressed. Correction, really fucking depressed about how it turned out because I had some high expectations and really wanted to make something film festival worthy. It wasn't. Anything and everything that went wrong, did. From big crew disagreements/heated arguments...not by me by the way, shitty audio, a lot of post work that didn't improve the flaws by much, camera issues, crew and actor drop outs etcs. So I'm speaking to the choir...to anyone who has worked on a film, short film, amateur or experience knows that the whole process is exciting yet very challenging, stressful, and perhaps daunting at times. But if you love it you love it, and no one outside of that can understand ones need to create something from nothing. To be an alchemist, a storyteller and have a need to express oneself through such an awesome and gut-wrenching medium.

School was a good distraction from such depression during the following school year. I focused on completing most of my required classes and allowing myself to step a little more out of my comfort zone. I went to a concert by myself. A bit lonerish, but didn't care especially since I got to see one of my new favorite bands, The Internet. I did invite someone but he stood me up. :/. I volunteered at the Cleveland International Film Festival. It was nice. Met or more likely saw some filmmakers as they enter the theatres and talked to panels. Saw some indie films. I helped a classmate with her horror films. Back in October I participated in Cleveland's 1st 48 hour horror film competition as a sound recorder. It was a nice experience being in a competition. What I take from that is that I rather not be a sound recorder.  I don't think I care for film competition that emphasizes speed filmmaking. I rather make something really good and not feel rush in the process. Then my classmate made her 30 min short for her independent study project and I just did some grip, pa stuff for that. It turned out pretty good. I am really proud how my classmate that she was able to accomplish her goal and to have a strong passion for filmmaking.

I fear losing passion for this because it can be a bit disheartening to want to say something, but you don't have the means, the support to create art. The industry is not for the faint of heart, I've been told in different words by professors, guest speakers etc. I doubt and question myself often if I can do this. Even try to steer myself to other avenues that still involve creativity, but lack the demands of filmmaking. I don't know.

I desire many things, to own my own production company and work with like minded individuals who are just as creative and passionate as I am. I might have ran into some but I was or am unable to see their intentions. They presented their ideas very passionately, but my caution, my fear, my lack of trust, and my lack of resources has made me not want to entertain their ambitions. I think I lack some of that ambitious, driven nature. I get it the moment something hits me, an idea, or when I have the confidence. Once I doubt, it's gone. I go back to my world where I try to focus on one thing at a time. My education at this moment. Stay safe.

I was able to attend my graduation ceremony in the spring even though I graduate this summer. I have one non film class to take, no job and ideas and unfinished project on the back burner. So this summer I need a direction, to make decisions, and not give up on a dream or I'll lose it by giving into life's mundane cycle of born, work, die. I want to travel, I want to experience , I want to feel free. The stereotypical 20 something year I guess. I want to create and leave some type of impact on the world. I don't really desire to be famous, idk if that is just fear, but I want to make something original and receive recognition for it and then go back into myself with no other eyes on me. I am a true introvert.

New 2012 Reels

 

Briana La Trise

Writer and Director Reel 2012

 

Briana La Trise

Videography & Editing Reel 2012

 

Crunch Time! Film student hard at work.

My fall semester is almost at an end. I have only two projects to complete before finals week. My third project in my film class I shot on the bolex. I have yet to recieved the footage, but I am hoping there is an image so I can begin editing and hopefully it will be chosen to be included in our school's bolex festival. I have started editing my final project which I've shot on video. I had some issues like not finding actors, I had to use classmates. Color and exposure issues that I hope for the most part to fix in post, but that is a difficult task when you have ocassionally forgotten to white balance. *rolls eyes* Oh and having to rush to get shots because of crew and actor's schedules and tardiness. But I guess this all comes with filmmaking...with no budget, and limited crew and resources.

Acting class. I feel like I am somewhat getting better, but I still have a lot to learn. We've done some acting infront of the camera where I have notice somethings about myself. I am starting to have a better voice, but I just need to control my tone better when entering my "given circumstances." I need to stay in character fully and commit. I tend to get out when feeling nervous or self-conscious. So that is something I must keep in mind when I have to perform a monologue in class next week probably. But I am not really taking this class to act, but to be able to direct actors and communicate with them better.

Some videography oppurtunities.
I helped someone film a concert band performance with a grammy winner pianist. I am hoping to recieve that footage to include in my portfolio.

I helped shoot an Open Mic Poetry show at a bar. I shot a member of the group, The Last Poets who recited some of his work. It was a pretty cool experience. This too I would like to use as well in my portfolio.

Life of a film student

So my first film I've shot with a 16mm bolex was ok. It came back from being developed and I for one was just elated that an image appeared. I did have a bit of technical issues with my lighting but for the most part it was exposed pretty well. I am hoping I can fix it a bit in post so I can submit it to my campus film festival at the end of this semester. I shot a 2 30 minute short using the bolex. There is no editing allowed, so we had to shoot everything in chronlogically. Shot by shot. I am really hoping that turns out well. Especially since I can not remember if I switched the shutter speed from 15fps to 24fps after I load the camera. It would be my luck...0_o

Acting is going well. It is harder than it look, trust. I have a scene to work on with a partner due next week I believe.

Color Correcting Test 1 (Incense)

So I wanted to practice and have a little fun with color correcting. Hence this test, but next time I would add some contrast.

Camera: Canon HD Vixia HF11 Camcorder
Software: Sony Vegas Pro 9

Music: Digable Planets "Jettin"

On My List 2

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By Ian Jeffrey

These photograpy books I feel will be good to have as a filmmaker. I want to improve my cinematic eye and what better way then to study images.

By Roberto Koch

On My List!

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Canon EOS Rebel T2i Dslr Camera

My Art (Mini Doc)

Film Festival and Filmmakers Panel

Last week I've attended the 36th Cleveland International Film Festival. It was a really cool experience, being my first film festival and all. I watched five really good films. I am thinking I may talk about those films here in my blog sometime in the future.

I really enjoyed the Q and As after the screening of the films. I wasn't brave enough to ask any questions, but I still took a lot from them. Learning from the directors experiences, their inspirations, their creative minds. I tell you what, the whole Q and A thing is not what I am looking forward to. That shit seems so nerve wracking. Especiallyfor me, I am shy and have a strong fear of public speaking. I don't know how I am going to be able to do that one day. -___- Lets worry about making a film Briana! Ha!

Last weekend, a filmmakers panel were held at my University for two days. I volunteered for one day, helped record the panels, had filmmakers sign release forms and gave out water. It was fun. Listening to the filmmakers talk about the industry was awesome. I wish able to engage in convo with some of them, but my self-consciousness is a bitch. Ugh. I know it is very important to network in this business, but for me, I guess the enviroment was too intense and fast pace. Filmmakers are constantly moving, speaking to someone it hard for someone like me who wants to engage, but withdraws when the pressure becomes too much. It felt like competition to try and grab their attention.I'm  not that aggressive. Plus, I suck at initiating, continuing and ending convo. Honestly, most of the time when I am speaking to someone, I rely on them to take the lead of the conversation. Um yep. Sad. But that is why I love art...film. My art speaks for me.

I Am Briana La Trise

Hi, I am Briana La Trise. Filmmaker, Videographer, and Writer.I will showcase my work and discuss current projects I am working on.

Hobbies/Interest: photography, poetry, music, art, yoga, and watching movies.